Prayer 22

Lord, structure and routine can feel inhuman,
and inactivity seems like powerlessness to me - like I'm
paralyzed on a balance beam, like I'm bound up and blindfolded, riding backwards on a conveyor belt. And authority seems hostile to my mind, so I resist obedience. And my heart is a fragile trigger, so I'm always too quick to act. But even if I callous and blister, even if I waste some earthly opportunity, I will learn to wait on you, Lord. And I will strive to obey your commands, even when it means standing still. Slowing up. Calming down.

(Psalm 27:14)