Prayer 31

Lord, I'm always tapping the keys on my deranged calculator, saying "what am I worth? How good am I? What can I do?" Half my soul is desperate for some sort of affirmation, no matter how arbitrary. The rest of me is pompous and cavalier in my assumptions of self worth. (If I were in a land of giants I wouldn't feel any smaller, yet I'm always terrified that I'm not accomplishing enough). The conclusions to my equations are always skewed. The math in the equation remains the same, but the answers always change. Forgive my constant appraisals and my worthless estimations. Just don't let me see myself as smaller than I am (1 Samuel 15:17) and don't let me overestimate myself (Romans 12:3, 16) and above all do not let others overestimate me (2 Corinthians 12:6). Guide me in sober judgment and please, please pull me out of my stupid math games and self-assessments.